Why a Coffee cup is Important to my Life Right Now

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G’morning all 🙂 Feast your eyes upon my breakfast this morning!!
– 4oz cup of Wildberry kefir
-1/2 bagel with low-fat cream whipped cream cheese
-biotin capsule (one per day, with food)
-HydroFlask of water for thru-out the day. (always start fresh!)
-Coffee cup of Starbucks Harvest Spice Blend with stevia and International Delight coffee creamer.

 

There’s really not anything special about this unless you know how my life has been the last couple months.
My dear Marth and I were married on August 27th, and we zipped off on our honeymoon the day after. We were gone for a week, came home and started moving the rest of his stuff over, and i began my life-long-love-affair with the government agencies that are the Social Security office and the DMV (also, don’t even get me started on all the doctors and dentist appointments i’ll have to have as soon as we get his work insurance straightened out.) Also frequent trips to the bank, Amvets to de-clutter the tiny studio apartment, and we won’t even talk about the fact that i’m training for a new postion 30-38 hours a week, Marth works full-time, and we, and the cat, need to eat at some point in life.
Long story short, I’ve been racing around like a crazy person, and this is my official, second-day-off since the honeymoon a month ago, where i can actually stop…and breathe… and sit down to plan a productive day that doesn’t involve going to work later/when i come back from work.

The coffee cup:

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Since three days before the wedding, my daily coffee went into a travel mug. I just ran around too much, and it would get cold too fast while i was distracted with other things, or i’d have to leave; basically, my life just isn’t conducive to having a normal cup of coffee to enjoy in the morning.
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Today i decided would be different. I am up and moving later than i’d like, but i’m glad, because i needed cuddle time with Marth before he went off to another long day of work (being married is awesome; you can even justify sleeping in, and nobody makes a fuss! XD ) I made him breakfast, said goodbye and i’m settling in to what i’m hoping will be both a refreshing, and productive day, where i don’t have that weight or anxious feeling of “Being lazy”, but without burning myself out or frustrating myself.
My yoga teacher calls things like that “balance”, and, on a yoga mat, it’s referred to as a “healthy edge”, where you can stretch, bend and explore a pose without risk of injury, but KNOWING where your limit is. That’s a way to live life, too, and it’s something new i’m trying to work on! 🙂
Of course, regardless of how busy my days are, i always try to squeeze in an hour walk or so (in the dark if i have to) and/or at least a 15-minute yoga routine.
These are not things that come easily or that i realize “hey, i have some extra time today; why not do that?”
These are things that i’ve had to MAKE time for, push aside other things that aren’t as important, and focus on what i need, that day.
One of my favorite phrases is “Take care of yourself. You can’t pour from an empty cup.”
It negates the “selfish” attitude that i worry about portraying when i say i’m just not up for something or i just can’t squeeze it in today, and focuses on the fact that i -and you- ALREADY do so much to help our loved ones and everyone around us, usually by just being us! If we intend to keep up that lifestyle of a giving heart and listening ear and flexible life, we need to take that time for ourselves, to ensure that we won’t break or become selfish when we lose our temper or aren’t able to give our full attention because we’re tired or unfocused.

That is what my coffee cup meant to me today; that i could take this time, this day, to organize my house, and my life, and take care of me, and that in itself IS productivity 🙂 Because taking care of yourself isn’t always sleeping, or long bubble baths or chocolate or all things of that nature.
More often than not, it’s that feeling and the actions taken to be in control what you can be, and letting go of what you cannot.

So take the time, even if it’s just 15 minutes, to do something that will spur you forward and guide you throu-out the rest of your day. 🙂

Some good examples to help you get started – I plan on doing a blog post for each with in-depth info as to why i like them so much! For now, if you’d like, claim what speaks to you today, and make it happen 🙂 

-Yoga – even just for 15 minutes of your day. Doesn’t have to be hot, sweaty or crazy; but focus on the relief you need today. (back, neck, stress, anxiety, tiredness, detox, etc)
-Purchase a probiotic drink and sip it thru -out the day.
-Prayer/journaling -Again, nothing special required, and it doesn’t have to be for hours.
-Healthy snacks/meals – Go out and purchase it if your budget will allow, or learn how to make some at home too! Even planning these things gets me excited!
-Go for a walk – Last time: It doesn’t have to be 5 miles. One, or a lap around the block is plenty, if you’re doing it mindfully and not just trying to get it over with.

i do hope some of these help; again, i will be putting up a blog post for each of these things and more specifically and practically why i find them so helpful!

Have a wonderful day 🙂

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This Sunday Afternoon…

I planned on taking a cutesy picture of myself and my elephant pants I got from my cousin, sitting with my bare feet out the window in my husbands Buick today. It was sunshiny-beautiful out, not too hot or too cold, and I was blasting classic rock hits and eating a $5 fill-up-cup of frozen yogurt with strawberries, caramel turtles, mochi and Nutella on it. Just relaxing, outside with the windows down in my favorite section of town.
I thought about taking a picture (cuz let’s be real, it was gosh-darn picture-perfect) but then I realized, if i did, it would be thru Instagram, and I’d spend the last few minutes I had there filtering and checking and rechecking the likes and I just thought… “No. Some moments are meant to be enjoyed just by you. So enjoy it for real, and don’t think about anything else until this moment is over, and you’ve gotten all the happiness out of it you can possibly get.”
So I did. 🙂 and it was really awesome.
Tbh, I wasn’t going to post it to social media at all, but it’s late, and I wanted to remember it and write it down while it was still fresh before it faded away with the rest of my good memories.
Make the most of good memories, gang. Just do it.

via my tumblr @meyla3839 🙂

Mother’s Day Thoughts – I’ll be Honest. I’m Frustrated.

I was reading some articles about Mother’s day on a mummy/wifey blog and very many articles, and comments, revolve around the how much people hate it!
I never realized so many people are so up-in-arms about Mother’s Day. I always thought perhaps it was hard for some people who didn’t have their mums with them anymore or who lived too far away to celebrate together.
Turns out, people are flipping their lids because apparently celebrating motherhood is degrading to those who aren’t mothers. Who knew?
Humanity. You’re killing me. Can you just realize for one moment that life isn’t about you??? And this “painful and terrible day that you refuse to be a part of” for a variety of reasons is just not justifiable?
Let me first say that anyone who has ever lived thru a miscarriage or lost a child in any way is already stronger than me; that is one of my greatest fears in life.
But, to me, you are a mother, your child just isn’t with you anymore. Don’t make a lost child (either in the world, or to the world) less than a real child.
I just don’t understand why fellow women would insist that the hardest job on earth isn’t worth being celebrated because it’s “too painful” for you.
And people who are in their late 20s-30s either single, or childless (have never carried or adopted a child) and just can’t handle sitting in a church service where the pastor asks the mums to stand up….and you “just can’t handle it anymore” and stand up?? what??! I don’t understand the pressure to do that…It literally makes zero sense to me.
The struggle of wanting children is real. I understand; I’m a girl too. But why do you have to degrade the greatest responsibility on earth, just because God hasn’t given it to you (yet? Or not in the way you imagined?)
“Real women” don’t have children. “Real women” do have children! Why does that have to define us?? Why do we desire to remove the holiday alltogether because the memory of our children and the love and plan of God isn’t enough for us??
….I guess that’s what it boils down to.

Shared from my Tumblr, @meyla3839

Apologies :(

Hey everybody,
i’m really sorry i haven’t had anything to say these past couple days; yesterday was honestly one of the hardest days i’ve had since moving here. Definitely in the top three, for sure.

I’ve been frantically hunting for a car because i put it off too long and my car was on life support this whole week. I found one i liked, but thru alot of crazy circumstances that mostly resulted from my own ignorance, it would be a while before i could actually have it. So when my car died yesterday, i didn’t have any clue what i was going to do.

All this said, i’m so thankful for the two families i have who i know love me. My big word of this year has been “provision”; where God has made it possible for me to exist, live and even thrive, against all odds!!
It’s gonna be okay 🙂 I’m getting my parents’ old car on Sunday, and Marth’s family and i have coordinated sharing their cars until then, so while it was crazy-stressful getting to this point, it’s all good now.

Marth. Oh my. If i ever thought i loved that man before…i was completely blown away by how wonderful he was to me yesterday at a time when i needed him so badly.
He was so patient and caring, even in the face of my overwhelming emotions and frustration. He never made me feel like a burden or like i was being stupid; he just gave me hugs and talked to me and let me talk…and especially just let me know he loved me. I hope and pray that i never forget why i chose him.

I’m so thankful.

“Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children” Trailer!

 

SOOOO i’m definitely not freaking out, but i’m freaking out!!
I just found out this existed and now that i’m almost finished the Harry Potter books, this is exactly something i’ve wanted to stumble across next!! The fact that it’s directed by Tim Burton just makes it even better ^_^ (he’s kind of one of my favorites 🙂 Between this and the new Alice movie, my life is so happy right now!)
I’m stoked. It’s gonna be amazing. I just gotta read the book before i see the movie. ^_^ It’s currently checked out at my library but i put it on hold for when it comes back in! 😀

“What Does it Truly Mean, to Marry Him?”

This phrase is something that kinda has rung thru my brain for a while; since Marth and i got engaged in October.
My first thoughts, of course, are having someone, physically, emotionally, spiritually, with me, for the rest of my life.
But what does that even mean?
Besides having someone to share a queen-sized bed with (you decide if that’s a good thing or a bad thing 😛 ), a constant companion, someone who makes the final calls in the household so i don’t have to, a “roommate” as it were, to split rent with and support me; a best friend, really…what else?

Sometimes, as i believe every person does in their life from time to time, i look at my life, and find myself thinking things like,
“We don’t have alot of money; he must not be providing well.”
“We don’t have everything figured out; he must not be planning well.”
“We disagree on things; i’m afraid that will adversely affect our relationship later.”
“We’re just so different.”

I could go on and on, but you get the gist of it. I’m complaining, and I’m worrying.
While money, personalities, plans and all those things are important, for sure, and essential to living a successful life, in any sense of the word, I find myself coming back to this one thought.

“What does it truly mean…to marry him? Am i up for this, really? How can i be, if i have these doubts and fears and anxieties that i can’t see a resolution to? How do i know this is right?” 

Marriage is a provision of God, that gives us someone to suffer with.

When i look at Marth, and all the things I’m anxious about, I picture if they were solved…if i traded him, but had no worries, no anxieties, and no foreseeable reason for any of them…I couldn’t do it.
As much as i am a “doer”, a planner, and a go-getter, kicking and fighting, and never quitting until i get what i set out to do, no matter what the odds…I will give these anxieties and fears to my Lord, and let him deal with them, and with me…Because there is no other human on the face of this earth that i would rather suffer with, both now in these little, normal-young-couple difficulties, and eventually (i’m certain) later as well.
Right now, it’s money, and our future. Later, it could be increased wedding stress, family tension after we’re married, job tension, money and lack thereof, children…the loss of a child. The loss of a sibling, parent or grandparent. An unexpected diagnosis. A faulty transmission in our last functional vehicle. Our greatest fears come to life.

We are dating, and now engaged, because i KNEW, in March of 2014, just before spring break; i knew that i didn’t want to spend my life without him.

So we will go on.

Anxieties and imperfections aside, differences and personality quirks on the back burner; when my world is coming down around me and i am at my worst…There is no one i’d rather have at my side than my Marth; always. Always.

I’m not sure how we’ll figure out this job situation and money situation and plan situation, and future situation, but one thing i do know, is that we’ll do it together. Today, tomorrow, August 27th, and every day after that.

I love you Marth. I am thankful every day that you chose me. Keep your chin up. 🙂 We’ll get thru this, just fine. We’ll be ‘right. We’ll make it, someday.

“Still he braves his path…
And the dust and the dirt cloud his vision,
Onward he rides, unafraid.
He fights the good fight, for good reason,
A star that refuses to fade.”

-Blackmore’s Night, ‘Windmills’.

“I’ll be there, in the night
When you need me…just call my name.
I’ll be there, close your eyes, and you’ll see me.
…Just call my name.”

-Blackmore’s Night, “Just Call My Name (I’ll Be There)”

Heartfelt Prayers and Quiet Nights

*sigh* Dear Lord; 

Today has been a good day. I’m ready to pay all my bills when Monday rolls around with $20 left over, which i am so thankful for!
I did alot of reading today, which was so much fun; very relaxing and a change of pace from my normal working out or watching tv.
I’m so excited to have tons of training hours at my new job this week that will help me pay next month’s bills! X’D being all adulty and such…

Tonight i just need to pray for Marth…Our job (my first job) has basically laid us off, at least for this week. People warned me it would happen, but i somehow never believed it until i wasn’t on the schedule for this week and there was a note next to it about “budget cuts” and “trying to be fair”. (We won’t talk about the new favorite girl, who has more hours than all of us put together; they’re just trying to be fair, we understand.) *sigh*

Right now, Marth is so stressed out, understandably so…Please…give me a calm spirit and let me keep my neediness to myself this week, because he needs time to think, get motivated, and trust you to bring another job opportunity along. I love him so much, and i know he needs me, if not right there with him. 

Please help him use this anxious time wisely, kick and fight the way i know he can, to find another job. I know he will, but i know the whole process is exhausting and frustrating for him, not to mention anxiety-inducing.
He’s requested to be alone tonight, and i plan to honor that.
Lord, he’s a strong man. But he doesn’t just want to be a bouncer and the muscle of a retail chain store. He has such talent.
Lord, please give him a place he can work to the best of his ability, somehow, someway…I can’t see what you have for us, but i KNOW it’s nothing but the best for us.

Please just keep him calm…and help me be a help, not a hindrance to him. Our heads have been kinda up in the clouds recently, and mine’s only just come back to earth in the past couple days and i know today has been his day for that, too.
God, we love you. And we love eachother. Please protect us while we figure out what to do next. I know it’s all gonna be okay. 

“…A Truly Glorious Lord’s Day.”

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Wow, i genuinely just have to say, today was a really, really great day. 🙂 No exceptions, no…anything negative, really. 🙂
I got up around 8, freezing cold and not particularly caring if i was late for church membership class at 9, because it was just too cold to be existing at that venture in time. X’D But i somehow bucked myself up and got out of bed, and dressed in the softest, warmest clothes i could find (which coincidentally, all happened to be gray), complete with leg warmers and comfy socks. ^_^

I was on time for class, and it was it’s normal amount of exciting…which really just means informative, so that’s a good thing at least 😛
Marth and i were both up late last night, so i knew he would be at least boarderlining late, once church actually started…His best friend Caleb went across the street to his house to go get him when it was about five minutes till, and i just talked to people and chilled.
When we were 10 minutes into the service and they still hadn’t shown up, so i just figured they weren’t coming or had slid into the back unnoticed.
As soon as the pastor started the opening prayer tho, my two ninjas slipped down the aisles into their seats, next to their respective ladies, and it was like magic when everybody opened their eyes! XD smooth criminals…

The message was amazing; i absolutely love our new pastor 🙂 He was talking about the unity of the church community and how important it is, if we’re to be perceived as anything but a judgmental, close-minded clique. When we got home, i found this picture that really summed it up well, and i posted it to our church’s facebook group, and thanked our Pastor, because it’s so true…

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Uugh; it’s just so true! I love it 🙂 he actually used that verse too, and it just summed up the message really well.
After the service, me, Marth, Caleb and his wife, Amy, took a trip out to our favorite Asian restaurant for lunch 🙂 It was a great time, just to chill and be together and eat amazing food! 😀
Caleb and Amy went home and Marth and i proceeded to change into our most comfortable clothes, grab our fuzziest blankets and park ourselves on the couch to watch Flip-Or-Flop with his parents…for the next four hours. X’D We mostly slept…it was a good time ^_^

(Bonus; during that time i did receive a call from the Human Resources girl at Wegmans, who was helping set up my interview time with them! 😀 hopefully, I start on Tuesday! 😀 )

Around 5:30, we perked up to get ready for the evening service at church, because everyone who wants to play floor hockey in the gym after has to come to church first 😛 So that was fun too; we’re working thru a series on the Bible and we focused mainly on the historical books of the Old Testament. It really inspired me to start reading thru the Bible again, especially the OT, because it’s just so interesting…i honestly love it so much 🙂 Hopefully Amy will do it with me! 😀

After the service, i zipped home to change into leggings, shorts and a t-shirt to play hockey in 🙂 Marth and i have been practicing, so i was hoping to have made some more improvement over the past two weeks. (more like he’s been helping me practice, because he was part of the church league a while ago, so he’s already amazing. 😛 )
It was super great; i can truly say some of those guys are really some of the most amazing people…they’re sweet, but they won’t baby you, and you actually come out of the pickup games feeling like you’ve done a good run, and learned some stuff, even if it was just everyone’s names and some new word definitions. X’D (“BOARDS, BOARDS, BOARDS!!!”)

But, yeah. 🙂 Marth asked me around 9:30 when the games were over if i wanted to go to Tim Hortons (who ever turns down Tim Hortons, really?) So we got TimBits and french vanilla cappuccino…just like the good old days at college together 🙂 So that was alot of fun too. We chilled there for a while before hitting Tops for some cold meds for me, some melatonin for him, and he also picked up some fruit for the week. He’s really been trying to eat healthier on a more consistent basis, and it’s so encouraging and inspiring to me, because it’s something i really prayed alot about when we first started dating. (at college, he drank mtn. dew, at every single meal, every single day. It was really bad. :/ ) But i’m just really proud of him, and blessed to be there to encourage him and support him!

We both popped some Vitamin C tablets and drove home, recapped tomorrow’s plan and went our separate ways 🙂 But it was really an amazing day, and i’m just so thankful…good way to start a new week. 🙂

MEMEBOX.com Order #3 ^_^

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The day has arrived…I’ve been waiting since the 7th for this box!! 😀
I just have to brag on this company so much right now…they are just wonderful!!
I usually place my orders on late Thursday night and receive them on Tuesday night. I was super disappointed that i didn’t get it last night, but i checked the mail the next day around noon and it was there! 😀 and let me tell you, it was well worth the wait!

First, I ordered 9 masks and a blemish cream.

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Most of them are re-orders; there’s 5 total here 🙂 I have acne and sebum trouble with my chin and t-zone so i love the teatree one!! Now that i switched to VaniCream soap and lotion, most of my acne has cleared (i’ll do a review on that in the future, as well!) and i just have residual dark spots and scarring from previous spots :/ so i’m super excited for the illuminating one, that, tho i’ve used before, it didn’t really accomplish it’s intended purpose because my acne was so bad. :/ i hope it will improve them!
The snail bee one is just amazing. If you ever want to choose and just try ONE mask, you should get this one. It’s $2, which is cheap for snail excretion and bee venom, it fits my face just fine, and it’s loaded with essence! It can make your skin kinda sticky afterwords, but oh my gosh, my skin feels like new afterwords!!

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These are new purchases, specifically for my remaining acne in hopes that i can clear it up a bit! The cream was actually a little smaller than i expected it to be, for $10, but it’s not one of those things you’ll need to use alot of…I’ve heard nothing but good things tho about it, so i’m hoping it will be worth it!

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Best part???
I do want to say that from both SoKoGlam.com and MEMEBOX.com, i’ve gotten free stuff! but this is the most free stuff i’ve ever gotten at once before!! These aren’t on the receipt and there’s no mention of them; they’re just in the box with my stuff ^_^ the TONYMOLY tomato is a sample size, but there is a FULL-SIZED, EXTRA mask stuck in my box! 😀 that’s at least $1-2 worth of free mask!! 😀 i was so pumped…

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As always, the staff are super personal, and super cute! ❤ My full name was also typed in 22-point font at the top of the receipt as well, with some cute little drawings. ^_^
I’ve just never had a bad experience with them! 🙂
I always buy just $30 worth, because then i get free shipping from them. ^_^ (SoKoGlam.com requires $50 :/ that’s the ONLY reason i don’t buy from them more frequently because they have great stuff as well!!)

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SO, yeah! 😀 i’m so pumped, and i just had to brag on them for a bit, because they’re just amazing, and i’m always so excited to order and receive from them! 😀 It just goes to show that a little extra presentation, personalization, and just being great is worth it! ❤ i’d recommend them to anyone 🙂

…Now, to go take a bath and try one of these out! ^_^