I don’t understand why i hold you to such high standards. It causes me to go from top of our world, to plotting your death; zero to sixty, in .02 seconds.
This probably isn’t healthy.
I’m pretty sure it’s just my fault; being stupid over nothing. I KNOW its over nothing. It’s just opinions…and friendships. Both things i want you to have.
Why are we so different? I’m not getting cold feet, i’m just worried. I don’t know why it makes me feel like my stomach is rotting out of my skeleton; we’ve talked about all of this so many times…I don’t know.
I’m probably just tired.
My soul aches every time you leave the house at the end of the night, to go home…because we have separate homes right now.
But i know it won’t always be that way.
No matter how much i see you during the day, i’m still never ready for you to leave. All the snarky remarks, the inside jokes, the kisses, the long talks and daily living…everything that makes us best friends; it never grows old, never fades.
All i want is to be with you for the rest of my life. Is that so much to ask? I know it will be that way eventually…but “eventually” seems so far from now.
Guard yourself, your heart and your emotions, my love, my precious one. Because showing restraint has never been so hard.
“However desperate and marginalized, we will be childishly hopeful and blind…yeah. We’ll make it, someday.”
i love you. And we will wait.
My dearest Love, Marth;
I miss you very much tonight. Its midnight, but i still keep hoping for some reason I’ll hear the basement door and you knocking…
I know today was really long and rough for you. But you did the best you could with what you had, and i know you did an absolutely great job! 🙂 I can’t wait to see you tomorrow, and go to Kingdom Bound!! 😀 It’s gonna be great. 🙂
I just want to tell you how proud i am of you…Learning a new job that you haven’t really done anything like before, and becoming friends with everyone so quickly…Everyone there loves you. 🙂
I am so thankful for your positive attitude, and how hard you work, and just the realness of who you are. Thankyou for how much you trust me…I love putting my arm around your head while you rest on my shoulder, and i love kissing you, and making you food, haha! Thankyou for allowing me to do all these things and more… 🙂
Don’t let rough days get you down, darling. They happen…you somehow miraculously make it thru…and then you go back with a better attitude tomorrow, and it’s okay. 🙂
And i’ll be there with you no matter what. 🙂
Keep being awesome. 🙂 I love you.