Why a Coffee cup is Important to my Life Right Now

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G’morning all ๐Ÿ™‚ Feast your eyes upon my breakfast this morning!!
– 4oz cup of Wildberry kefir
-1/2 bagel with low-fat cream whipped cream cheese
-biotin capsule (one per day, with food)
-HydroFlask of water for thru-out the day. (always start fresh!)
-Coffee cup of Starbucks Harvest Spice Blend with stevia and International Delight coffee creamer.

 

There’s really not anything special about this unless you know how my life has been the last couple months.
My dear Marth and I were married on August 27th, and we zipped off on our honeymoon the day after. We were gone for a week, came home and started moving the rest of his stuff over, and i began my life-long-love-affair with the government agencies that are the Social Security office and the DMV (also, don’t even get me started on all the doctors and dentist appointments i’ll have to have as soon as we get his work insurance straightened out.) Also frequent trips to the bank, Amvets to de-clutter the tiny studio apartment, and we won’t even talk about the fact that i’m training for a new postion 30-38 hours a week, Marth works full-time, and we, and the cat, need to eat at some point in life.
Long story short, I’ve been racing around like a crazy person, and this is my official, second-day-off since the honeymoon a month ago, where i can actually stop…and breathe… and sit down to plan a productive day that doesn’t involve going to work later/when i come back from work.

The coffee cup:

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Since three days before the wedding, my daily coffee went into a travel mug. I just ran around too much, and it would get cold too fast while i was distracted with other things, or i’d have to leave; basically, my life just isn’t conducive to having a normal cup of coffee to enjoy in the morning.
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Today i decided would be different. I am up and moving later than i’d like, but i’m glad, because i needed cuddle time with Marth before he went off to another long day of work (being married is awesome; you can even justify sleeping in, and nobody makes a fuss! XD ) I made him breakfast, said goodbye and i’m settling in to what i’m hoping will be both a refreshing, and productive day, where i don’t have that weight or anxious feeling of “Being lazy”, but without burning myself out or frustrating myself.
My yoga teacher calls things like that “balance”, and, on a yoga mat, it’s referred to as a “healthy edge”, where you can stretch, bend and explore a pose without risk of injury, but KNOWING where your limit is. That’s a way to live life, too, and it’s something new i’m trying to work on! ๐Ÿ™‚
Of course, regardless of how busy my days are, i always try to squeeze in an hour walk or so (in the dark if i have to) and/or at least a 15-minute yoga routine.
These are not things that come easily or that i realize “hey, i have some extra time today; why not do that?”
These are things that i’ve had to MAKE time for, push aside other things that aren’t as important, and focus on what i need, that day.
One of my favorite phrases is “Take care of yourself. You can’t pour from an empty cup.”
It negates the “selfish” attitude that i worry about portraying when i say i’m just not up for something or i just can’t squeeze it in today, and focuses on the fact that i -and you- ALREADY do so much to help our loved ones and everyone around us, usually by just being us! If we intend to keep up that lifestyle of a giving heart and listening ear and flexible life, we need to take that time for ourselves, to ensure that we won’t break or become selfish when we lose our temper or aren’t able to give our full attention because we’re tired or unfocused.

That is what my coffee cup meant to me today; that i could take this time, this day, to organize my house, and my life, and take care of me, and that in itself IS productivity ๐Ÿ™‚ Because taking care of yourself isn’t always sleeping, or long bubble baths or chocolate or all things of that nature.
More often than not, it’s that feeling and the actions taken to be in control what you can be, and letting go of what you cannot.

So take the time, even if it’s just 15 minutes, to do something that will spur you forward and guide you throu-out the rest of your day. ๐Ÿ™‚

Some good examples to help you get started – I plan on doing a blog post for each with in-depth info as to why i like them so much! For now, if you’d like, claim what speaks to you today, and make it happen ๐Ÿ™‚ย 

-Yoga – even just for 15 minutes of your day. Doesn’t have to be hot, sweaty or crazy; but focus on the relief you need today. (back, neck, stress, anxiety, tiredness, detox, etc)
-Purchase a probiotic drink and sip it thru -out the day.
-Prayer/journaling -Again, nothing special required, and it doesn’t have to be for hours.
-Healthy snacks/meals – Go out and purchase it if your budget will allow, or learn how to make some at home too! Even planning these things gets me excited!
-Go for a walk – Last time: It doesn’t have to be 5 miles. One, or a lap around the block is plenty, if you’re doing it mindfully and not just trying to get it over with.

i do hope some of these help; again, i will be putting up a blog post for each of these things and more specifically and practically why i find them so helpful!

Have a wonderful day ๐Ÿ™‚

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Little Thankfulness Sparks from Today

Each day, no matter how bad, i always have something to be thankful for. A rough Wednesday afternoon? At least i got to be with my adorable preschoolers in the morning. An AWFUL day at Hobby Lobby on Tuesday? At least i got in some good yoga in the morning and ate a pint of ice cream while talking with my manager, Matt, at Wegmans until 10:30 at night afterwords.

Speaking of Wegmans…
I was chilling and just doing my job this afternoon, when one of my other managers, Mike, asked if i was free tomorrow (Tuesday). I told him not really, because i had to be at Hobby Lobby, 1-9ish.
He said morning was exactly what he was looking for, and would i be willing to come in around 7:30-8. Because it’s Mike, and i know he loves me and appreciates my work, I agreed.
We talked for a minute, and he finally cocked his head and asked if i went to school; basically what i did with my life when i wasn’t there. I said i didn’t go to school; I just worked two jobs, and had my own apartment…and a cat. (“haha. ^_^ ” )
He nodded and asked if i was interested in getting full-time.
“Here?” I asked
“Anywhere.” He laughed.
I nodded about six times and said absolutely, I’d love to work full time here.

Something about the grin on his face and the light in his eyeballs made me smile too and i asked what was up. He just said “Good to know…good to know.”
I asked if he had a full-time job for me, and he shook his head and said “No…but i’m gonna push you along. I’m gonna get you full-time here.”

I know he was serious. I have no clue what kind of time-table he’s talking about. But it just kinda made my day; the realization that i have someone at work, who’s watched me, taught me and been there for me, who wants to see me go far there.
It’s exciting, its encouraging and it’s really great to see a company living out the values they claim to have. I love my new job, and i love my friends there so much. Who’d have guessed i’d move to a new state out of nowhere and find my own way, at work…in a grocery store?

I’m stoked. And thrilled to be coming in to work at 7:30 tomorrow morning for one of my favorite managers ๐Ÿ™‚ Who wants to see me do well.

You’ve been Asleep for an Hour.

I don’t understand why i hold you to such high standards. It causes me to go from top of our world, to plotting your death; zero to sixty, in .02 seconds.
This probably isn’t healthy.
I’m pretty sure it’s just my fault; being stupid over nothing. Iย KNOWย  its over nothing. It’s just opinions…and friendships. Both things i want you to have.
Why are we so different? I’m not getting cold feet, i’m just worried. I don’t know why it makes me feel like my stomach is rotting out of my skeleton; we’ve talked about all of this so many times…I don’t know.
I’m probably just tired.

Plato’s Closet Run! :D

Recently, I decided i needed to get new jeans; Marth loves them, and there’s only one, possibly two pairs that fit me, because i’ve lost weight recently (yay! ๐Ÿ˜€ I’ve been working out every day so it’s great to see it’s been paying off!)

I thought about Khols and Walmart and JC Penney and all those other places that have good clothes and since the tax return came in, i actually have money again. At the same time…I remembered the tight, uncomfortable “new jeans” feel. :/ After spending years in hand-me-down jeans from my ex-boyfriend’s older sisters, i just have had a hard time getting used to new jeans. I haven’t had a comfortable pair of new jeans since 2013…and they were the only ones i’d had since 2011. XD

Not that i’m complaining!! Hand-me-down jeans are soft and comfy and, as long as they’re a good brand name, still have plenty of wear in them ๐Ÿ™‚

Somehow i had forgotten that me and Marth’s favorite high-end thrift shop, Plato’s Closet sold jeans.
Fortunately i remembered just in time! ^_^
After trying on about 7 pairs, I got American Eagle jeans for $17! They’re long, comfy and lived-in. ๐Ÿ˜€ โค

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Soooo of course, i couldn’t stop there…

I found this cute little number, and there were two reasons i had to have it.

  1. I’m a huge sucker for skater skirts.
  2. It was $5. ๐Ÿ˜€

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(It’s lacy and cute at the bottom too!)

Then, i remembered i had bought my favorite sweater from there, a while ago. Its a gray knit button-up cardigan…from the guys’ section. So naturally i had to peruse there too ๐Ÿ˜‰
Before i even got to the sweater section, i found this…

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I mean. C’mon. It’s awesome. And it makes me think of the guys from the Big Bang Theory. And it was $6, so i bought it too ^_^

Aaaand then i got to the sweater section! ๐Ÿ˜€ It took some looking cuz there were not many that unzipped/unbuttoned all the way down.
This one, has pockets and it’s so long and comfy! ๐Ÿ˜€

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Last but certainly not least….
As i looked thru the girls tops (which i finally decided i’d just go to walmart later, because there are a couple there i know i like and look good on me. Plus the crazy, overpattered oversized selection was giving me a headache),ย I happened to glance up at the shoe rack. I’m always on the lookout for heels, because i only owned one pair (brown leather hand-me-down from the ex’s sister) straight up until about 2 months ago when Marth’s mum gave me some that she bought that didn’t fit her. They’re Croc brand, so waterproof, sandal-style black heels.
I found these; black, borderline Steampunk style with a hint of Helena Bonham-Carter. ^_^ Usually cute things like these don’t fit me, but i had socks on today and i figured that would give me some wiggle room for sizing.
They slid on my feet like a dream. ๐Ÿ™‚
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I LOVE THEM.

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$9.00!!!
I couldn’t pass them up. ^_^

So that was my adventure today ๐Ÿ™‚ Grand total, including county tax ended up around $47-$50. ๐Ÿ™‚ So that was awesome!

Plato’s Closet. Super amazing value for adorable stuff! ๐Ÿ™‚

 

Advice From Animations

What are you TALKING about?? You are Elastigirl!! My god; pull. yourself. together! ‘What will you do?’??! Is this a question??!
You will show him you remember that he is Mr. Incredible, and you will remind him who YOU are.
You know where he is; go, confront the problem…Fight! Win!”

-Edna “E” Mode,ย The Incrediblesย 

“What Does it Truly Mean, to Marry Him?”

This phrase is something that kinda has rung thru my brain for a while; since Marth and i got engaged in October.
My first thoughts, of course, are having someone, physically, emotionally, spiritually, with me, for the rest of my life.
But what does that even mean?
Besides having someone to share a queen-sized bed with (you decide if that’s a good thing or a bad thing ๐Ÿ˜› ), a constant companion, someone who makes the final calls in the household so i don’t have to, a “roommate” as it were, to split rent with and support me; a best friend, really…what else?

Sometimes, as i believe every person does in their life from time to time, i look at my life, and find myself thinking things like,
“We don’t have alot of money; he must not be providing well.”
“We don’t have everything figured out; he must not be planning well.”
“We disagree on things; i’m afraid that will adversely affect our relationship later.”
“We’re just so different.”

I could go on and on, but you get the gist of it. I’m complaining, and I’m worrying.
While money, personalities, plans and all those things are important, for sure, and essential to living a successful life, in any sense of the word, I find myself coming back to this one thought.

“What does it truly mean…to marry him? Am i up for this, really? How can i be, if i have these doubts and fears and anxieties that i can’t see a resolution to? How do i know this is right?”ย 

Marriage is a provision of God, that gives usย someone to suffer with.

When i look at Marth, and all the things I’m anxious about, I picture if they were solved…if i traded him, but had no worries, no anxieties, and no foreseeable reason for any of them…I couldn’t do it.
As much as i am a “doer”, a planner, and a go-getter, kicking and fighting, and never quitting until i get what i set out to do, no matter what the odds…I will give these anxieties and fears to my Lord, and let him deal with them, and with me…Because there is no other human on the face of this earth that i would rather suffer with, both now in these little, normal-young-couple difficulties, and eventually (i’m certain) later as well.
Right now, it’s money, and our future. Later, it could be increased wedding stress, family tension after we’re married, job tension, money and lack thereof, children…the loss of a child. The loss of a sibling, parent or grandparent. An unexpected diagnosis. A faulty transmission in our last functional vehicle. Our greatest fears come to life.

We are dating, and now engaged, because i KNEW, in March of 2014, just before spring break; i knew that i didn’t want to spend my life without him.

So we will go on.

Anxieties and imperfections aside, differences and personality quirks on the back burner; when my world is coming down around me and i am at my worst…There is no one i’d rather have at my side than my Marth; always. Always.

I’m not sure how we’ll figure out this job situation and money situation and plan situation, and future situation, but one thing i do know, is that we’ll do it together. Today, tomorrow, August 27th, and every day after that.

I love you Marth. I am thankful every day that you chose me. Keep your chin up. ๐Ÿ™‚ We’ll get thru this, just fine. We’ll be ‘right. We’ll make it, someday.

“Still he braves his path…
And the dust and the dirt cloud his vision,
Onward he rides, unafraid.
He fights the good fight, for good reason,
A star that refuses to fade.”

-Blackmore’s Night, ‘Windmills’.

“I’ll be there, in the night
When you need me…just call my name.
I’ll be there, close your eyes, and you’ll see me.
…Just call my name.”

-Blackmore’s Night, “Just Call My Name (I’ll Be There)”

S/O to My FAVORITE Yoga Youtuber!

Sarah Beth yoga โค I love this girl so much!! Every single video she does is inspiring and beautiful! This particular playlist is a yoga routine for every day of the week, focusing on different things, and i’ve been doing each day, as well as her Pre-Workout Warm-Up and Post-Workout Cool-Down! She’s got a bunch of deep stretches and vlogs as well!

I’ll never need another yoga youtube channel again โค keep being beautiful, friend!